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| Regret (Updated) |
| 01.02.05 (11:22 pm) [edit] |
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I'm not in a good place right now. The details don't really matter. Someone that I care about has (I feel) shut me out. We were very close (at least I thought so) and suddenly, things have taken a 180 degree turn. I can put on that Diva-bravado with that stiff-upper lip and charge on, but I don't feel that it's the best choice for me. I have been told this has 'nothing' to do with me, but in reality, I don't believe it for a second. I'm quite sad because I think this person will choose not to be a part of my life anymore. And that breaks my heart. Maybe I'm all wrong. Maybe it's because I haven't slept much in days. I don't know what to say because I feel no matter what I say, it won't matter. Why can't people cut the bullshit and not dance around things - speak straight from the heart? Am I the only one out there that would rather hear 'the brutal truth' than some answer that doesn't really answer anything at all but causes more questions? ***Now some of you may know who I'm talking about - do not start flaming the other party - okay? It doesn't solve anything... I know you guys love me and anyone that causes pain - whether intentional or not - will always be seen as 'the bad guy'. This is not that sort of situation. UPDATE: Thankfully, I was wrong. This person has surprised me. His comments about wanting to remain friends were apparently not empty statements to placate me for the rest of the trip. Will we be able to back to the friendship we had before? I dunno. Could this situation make our friendship stronger? I dunno. It's still too early to tell. What I do know is that the thought of not having him as my friend makes me feel panicky. There are not many people that I would say they have that much impact on my life. |
posted by: April (reply)
post date: 01.02.05 (11:24 pm)
all i can do is give you both a tight hug and hope that possibly he was just shy and once you have had time apart.. he will see the great person that you are.
at least you were not alone on new years and you got out of the house for a bit and got to get dressed up. maybe it's just one of those things where you can be only friends... who knows.. all i know is please be safe
posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 01.03.05 (2:48 am)
u said it best when u said nothing at all..
posted by: producerboy (reply)
post date: 01.03.05 (12:05 pm)
producerlove
posted by: LastPoeticKiss (reply)
post date: 01.03.05 (2:10 pm)
Diva, I know exactly what you are going through, I am going through the SAME EXACT THING...not doing good at all either...
though for me, I'm getting mixed signals...and...lots o' crying...love ya Diva, hope things get better for you!
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 01.04.05 (4:52 am)
Reply to: LastPoeticKiss
I'm doing much better now, I'd say that I'm 99.99% recovered. I hope you are on the road to recovery.
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 01.04.05 (4:52 am)
Reply to: producerboy
What would I do without you? Mwah. Missed our usual chats and banter... Hope you had a great NY!
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