I'm in a 'mood' right now. Source? Family. (Everyone give a collective sigh)

I don't have a lot of family. I have my mother (who drives me batty, but she's my mom). I have an eccentric genius uncle that lives alone and isn't exactly the touchy-feely- emotional type either. (Where I got it, I have NO idea!) My dad is an ass and 'has a new family now'. No siblings.

I have a male cousin I'm somewhat close to. He had a brain injury 10 years ago and although he's got some challenges, I treat him like a 'normal' person. I take him on trips and got him into scuba. He lives about 5 hours away. His mother is rather, um, a manipulative bitch would be an understatement. (Long story, but trust me!)

His sister lives here in town. She's about 10 years younger than me. We've never been close, despite my attempts to be a big sister figure. Aloof would be a good way to describe her. Reached out to her CONSTANTLY for years. Like hitting a brick wall. I never hear from her unless there's an event which would necessitate me giving her a gift. (Graduation, wedding shower, wedding, baby shower...) I called her last year - geesh - about 10 times over 3 months. Just to see how she was doing, etc. She didn't return one f'ing call!

So for some reason, I wasn't exactly chomping at the bit to go to her baby shower a few months ago. I didn't go. I explained that I wasn't up to it. My mother went. She elaborated on my brain tumor, etc.

Did they call to see how I was doing? (You already know the answer to that)

This morning, my mother called all yappy and excited because my cousin is supposedly in labor. Telling me to get ready to go to the hospital.

Call me jaded but fuck that. We may be related by blood, but my mailman has shown more kindness and gratitude than she has. Blah blah blah - new life, celebration. It's about gifts, flowers, etc.

And I'm not good at faking that I'm overjoyed. I wish them well but I'm tapped - not giving one more ounce of effort towards her.