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Groundhog Day
02.03.12 (4:11 am)   [edit]
In case you didn't notice... My last posting was on April Fool's Day. I'm alive. Still in Atlanta. Had a lot going on. Many people I believed in, trusted and relied on - well, I found out that they lied, deceived, used me. Common denominator... me. Not only did Hot Stud father a kid while we were supposedly exclusive, but I also found out he's had an 'open relationship' with a woman for nine years. Bi-guy calls me, asking my opinion about some random girl being a good fit for Hot Stud. (Hot Stud is the one who told me Bi-guy had been in a relationship with a man for 7 years. And Bi-Guy tells me about Hot Stud's girlfriend of almost a decade...) I quit dating more than a year ago. Completely. It's not in the cards for me. I've accepted it. I realized I'm clearly not as savvy about people as I thought. I don't believe in others and I certainly don't believe in any intuitions I have about myself. I've retreated. From just about everything. Professionally, I've disappeared. I've successfully alienated my friends. My closest friends have been people I have never met. I pushed to meet in person and it didn't happen... You have no idea how humiliating, humbling and alone one feels when they are shamed by medical professionals because you don't have any one to look after you, to pick you up after surgery. So incredibly alone. I've taken up... backpacking. It's an escape. I now go 'into the woods' for 4-5 days at a time. No showers, no flat irons. I only wish I could take the felines with me, but they wouldn't be good trail cats. I've been bitten by a pit bull on the trail, had a close encounter with a bear in the middle of the night, and gotten seriously lost when it was going below 20degrees. Not sure why I'm bother to post.
 


posted by: auntconi (reply)
post date: 02.03.12 (2:26 am)

Wow... from an Atlanta city girl and now to backpacking... you sure have made some changes!!!



posted by: OldSchool (reply)
post date: 02.03.12 (5:24 am)

Hey, it's good to hear from you & know that you're still there. Miss you around tBlog.

Sometimes posting can help you work through your feelings, so it can't hurt.

Obviously I don't know you personally, but have always admired your confidence & your single-mindedness in the past. I know you can get back to that, but it will likely happen when you're ready. Keep on keepin' on.



posted by: PastorDave (reply)
post date: 02.03.12 (8:55 am)

Hey, I'll give you a ride home anytime. And I'll bet I live close enough to actually be able to do it!
Scuba, I'm going to venture to say... maybe you expect too much from people?



posted by: surrogate (reply)
post date: 02.04.12 (1:06 am)

Hey wow. Glad to hear you're still about. Sorry things suck. Backpacking's good!



posted by: austennight (reply)
post date: 02.07.12 (3:43 am)

hey scubadiva,
i dropped by tblog after ages, literally, wanted to get info on another tblogger who left. cant seem to find him anywhere. backpacking sounds cool, be safe and hang in there. let me know if you has a faceBook acct

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