It's 2:29 a.m. I have taken two Ambien at 30 min intervals. Still wide awake. Journaled a lot of 'stuff' on my mind to let it go.
Still awake. Fortunately, I have ambien-drunk-dialed anyone tonight. (yet)
Watching a somewhat intriguing thriller I got from Blockbuster online. The rest of the movie selections sucked. I relied on their 'recommendations' which apparently are from the bottom of the movie barrel.
"Poison" should have been titled "Horseshit" - honest to God, the WORST movie I've ever seen - and I bet the ones with Paris Hilton and Mariah Carey and Britney Spears are leagues above it.
And then "Hard Trip" which I thought was a somewhat current release. Turns out it was a documentary about the porn industry. (Rated R) So, like a train wreck, you just have to watch it. I found it rather pathetic how these people claimed that their families totally supported what they were doing. And how they were making 'tons' of money while living in a total dump with thread-bare furniture and a mattress on the floor.
Then the piece de la resistance was "Loving and Cheating" another documentary that interviewed several couples - from engaged, to recently-married, to married 10+ years, 20+ years and 50 years. The yet to be marrieds were all doe-eyed and romantic about their commitment. The marrieds were all saying that they didn't think it was feasible to be monogamous to the same person for the rest of their lives. Kinda puts a hole in the heart of love. Found it depressing. The thought of juggling a husband, my boyfriend and my husband's girlfriend... It all sounds TOO damn complex. One man + one woman is tough enough.
Made me depressed that I'll never find my penguin. I'm forever and ever doomed to be single. I'm deciding which spinster angle I should go - the one that collects stray cats, or maybe little crystal figurines, or maybe dolls, or buy a wedding dress and wander around in it at night crying? Or maybe in my new black stillettos and black lace bra/panties?
I WANT A SANE BOYFRIEND THAT IS SINGLE, SANE, STRAIGHT, LOCAL and EMPLOYED. That's a start, right?
Now accepting nominations. Must live in Metro Atlanta area (Preferably ITP).
So now you can start combing the fields of eligible men for me. Next posting will go into more detail.