Had a counseling session today. Talked about how I'm feeling down. I don't think it's necessarily that I'm depressed per-se. I think that it's more that I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed by a lot of stuff right now that is beyond my control and situational. That causes anxiety, insecurity, insomnia. I don't feel sad though.

However, counselor had me rendezvous with the in-house psychiatrist. Explained that I was not a fan of anti-depressants and I didn't feel like I needed them right now, that I felt like I'm just more aware and noticing these 'warning signs'. She agreed. I told her that I had stopped taking Klonopin because it can trigger depression. She gave me another perscription for it. (Not taking it though... I'm still going to try to tough it out)

I feel like I'm really opening  up with the counselor - it figures because she's leaving the practice next month. We haven't discussed who will be taking me over. And she's getting me the referral for the family counseling with my mother. She said she was concerned that it might stress me out more - but I told her that what was currently going on wasn't working and it couldn't get any worse - and if it did get more inflamed for a while, that it was a means to an end and I could deal with that.

I'm beat. 3 hours of sleep and this heat is murder.