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| Contradiction |
| 07.07.05 (8:20 pm) [edit] |
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Had my "I'm not sure if it's really a date" date tonight. I wasn't feeling well. I rested until 4pm, took a shower, got dressed and spent 90 minutes in traffic. This is a guy-friend that I have the upmost respect for, and at times, a semi-crush for. I wasn't in the mood to eat, so I just had some water. For the next hour, I listened to him talk about these three different girls he's seeing. One of them has demonstrated that she doesn't have the best character and has hurt him in the past month. But he's decided to take her back into his dating fold. I didn't really talk much. I just sorta sat there and 'uh-huh'ed a lot. He told me that he thinks about me a lot. A big impediment to us exploring the 'more than friends' is that we live about 45 mins away from each other. He said he was sorry that I wasn't feeling well - in reality, me not feeling well had very little to do with me being quiet. I just felt like I've been moved to third string with him. It's not that I'm seeking a romantic relationship with him - I'm not. What I find is that I'm envious of all the time he has for these other girls. Yes, I'm contradicting myself. Yes, I'm confused. I talked to "R" tonight for about an hour. We're meeting tomorrow evening for Mexican. He started pressing me about why I'm on leave. I really didn't want to get into it on the phone. I think I came off as evasive or dishonest. Deciding if I should send an email about it in the morning - I don't want it to come off as a big deal but I also don't want him to feel that I'm not being upfront. |
posted by: AmyHCAlum (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (4:34 am)
Isn't it bad enough that men are confusing all on their own?! But then when we get confused too, making it a double whammy...ugh. Hope tonight's adventure is nice & stress free.
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (5:36 am)
Reply to: AmyHCAlum
My eyes are so red and I didn't sleep a wink last night (despite taking 2 Ambien). My head wouldn't shut up. Since I'm so tired, I'm now an emotional basketcase. I'm in the mood to cry.
posted by: AmyHCAlum (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (5:39 am)
Reply to: ScubaDiva
You can cry on my shoulder...shirts wash (if you snot too much) *smile* But, I warn you, I'll do something goofy to make you smile too...
posted by: NightBreed (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (6:20 am)
HEY HEY HEY GIRLFRIEND!!
THIS IS APRIL AND I AM AT THE LIBRARY (oh how ever you spell it!!)
I MISS YOU SCUBA DOOBA DOO
yes this is me cause i ran the anne rice book!!!
HUGGLES AND MONDO KISSES
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (9:04 am)
Reply to: NightBreed
Sorry I missed your emails hon, was out sunning. Will reply to your email. Hugs back at ya.
posted by: pro ducer bo y (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (9:35 am)
A 'date' is not where you listen to a gentleman's descriptions/issues about other ladies in his life.
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (10:17 am)
Reply to: pro
I know... (sigh) I didn't say it was a 'date date'.
posted by: brogonzo (reply)
post date: 07.08.05 (12:53 pm)
There's always backup, right?
posted by: verucassalty (reply)
post date: 07.09.05 (3:42 am)
hmmm.. ok, is 45 minutes away really that big of a deal or are the two of you using that as an excuse to not try it out?
hell, i drive over an hour everyday just to get to work.. and the guy ive been seeing lives over an hour away as well.
distance can always be a factor i suppose- so... is he worth that to you?
thinking of you, hope your evening out with "R" goes well.. and you know what- maybe its something you can talk about in person, its ok to not want to go into it during a phone conversation..
posted by: ScubaDiva (reply)
post date: 07.09.05 (4:57 am)
Reply to: brogonzo
There's back-up -
like back that ass up?
like back-up (wingman)?
like a spare date in case of emergency?
posted by: brogonzo (reply)
post date: 07.10.05 (9:31 am)
Reply to: ScubaDiva
I meant the last, but I guess they all work.
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